In my story book of life I would have to include the last two weeks. No matter what horrid event occured, another one took its place 5 minutes-1 hour later--no real rest, no peace. I went through so much shock that I literally began crying and shaking uncontrollably. I haven't learn the trust God method all the way yet. :) In fact, I think this is paritally why all this occured. I had to pass an exam without taking a the class for it--MAJOR STUDY TIME!! Pass or fail, baby. Talk about pressure. Then, my graduation was nearly taken away after already well into my graduation countdown (BIG, GIANT, COLLOSSAL mess I had to sort through while essentially taking 23 units), then I nearly lost (through financial aid confusement) all my money with no real answer of how to pay pay my bills, or even more important, how to buy food and not starve. Then a couple other things happened after those. The first three, however, lasted long periods of time--and with conflict--which I hate, loathe and DESPISE. Overall, it took me a good 3 or so days to recove after the storm passed over. On Monday, a thunder storm approached my life, and I nearly couldn't handle it (due to the shock I had already endured), but my mom quickly reminded me of what God has shown me over the past two weeks. And, God, quickly reminded me that He is here with me and is calling.
A volcano erupting during one wave of my life . . .
Looking back at these concerns, I see the value through all the rubble of turmoil and confusion. God never left me in any of it. There were times that I did not spend with Him when I should have, but He stayed with me, and got me through EVERY situation. EVERY one--in fact, He reminded me, there has never been a situation that He has not brought me through with amazing results. He has never brought me to a point where I felt like I was hanging over the cliff's edge and left me there. *selah* :) And, not only was HE there for me, but He also brought around my amazing friends. This showed me just what kind of friends I have -- a friend (math major) who gave me as much time as I needed to help me study to pass my big pass-or-fail math exam. Another friend took time to type out and send me a Bible verse she thought would help me. Some friends took time to pray with me and offer their support in any way possible (e.g., time, financial). Another friend who knew I had a hurricane room that was stressing me out, came in, without me knowing it, and cleaned it for me. What a blessing! I cannot begin to thank them--and especially cannot begin to thank God for all of His blessings through this time--not only for bringing me through and for bringing me real friends and a MAJOR supportive and loving family, but also for shaping me and drawing me closer to Him. :D Praise God.
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well, shall be praying that everything recovers the way it should...
WOW, your friends sound awesome!! I'm soooooo sorry I wasn't more understanding of the financial thing and maybe put undue stress on you about this summer!! I have forgotten already what it is like being poor, and I suppose I am still a bit spoiled living at home and not having to pay rent, though I do have to pay my other bills. I just didn't understand where you were at and I should have taken your word and not jumped to the conclusion that you were doing what my other friends have done to me so many times...Again, I am soo so sorry! I feel absolutely terrible and I hope that you can forgive me! (I hope you don't mind me posting this publically, I am too lazy atm to open up my email and this is so much easier :) ). Maybe we can get together next summer when things are better...
Sounds like the granddaddy of all rough times! I'm really glad you've gotten through with a greater faith! As weird as it sounds, I'm glad I've gone through my 'volcanos' because it does teach me so much about God's faithfullness, even (or perhaps especially) in the face of my own lack of faith. Stupid 'ol me never seems to learn just by reading that God is faithful, but instead I have to put Him to the test. But, it is good to come out the other side being able to feel Him right there!
God bless!
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